whenever whatever

is it just me being irritated or whatsoever. how i wish i can just get out of this country and leave this place right here and right now.

perhaps it is menopause or what so ever, people ard me are getting so naggy that i can't take it. it always ended up in a quarrel whenever i tried talking back. however when i remained quiet, they would say : "why are u keeping quiet, don't think that u keep your mouth shut i will stop". what the hell~ besides that i think it is okay.

i'm planning for my future already how to get myself to japan and work and stay there and also to study.
PR of Japan LOL major aim however getting a dream job will be most wanted..

first step : study well and score well get a diploma in biomedical science.
second step: with cert get into local uni (NUS) arts and social science ( thru another door) taking Japanese studies.
alternate: SIM getting the communication studies
or full time course in Japanese.

third step: NUS success --> leaving for Jap studies in 2010 in a university.
SIM - course finish it
Jap course - finish it ( JLPT)

4th step: NUS --> find a job while i'm there
(try to find jobs that i want when i'm there, perhaps teaching for english)
SIM - save while studying work - with money go there to study language for a year in school then get a job
Jap: save money - study language to get myselft there.

Wanting to use the SIM to get some media job and advertisement job. creativity still my cup of tea.

aims: getting my shop up and making a transaction with my sister, i get the goods from japan she sells them in singapore.

starting of saving for my Japanese study in Japan right now . starting from coins and notes

toueba - ganbatte ne.. nihon ga watashi no jinsei darou.
and also i will be going to Japan 2time every year so i shall spent my money carefully

hey people, here is my second day at Liang court Starbucks.

coming up on the second day in doing my Darn FYP report which make me feel sick and irritated. Now i have change my darn graph again damn it.. see~ i knew it, she wants me to change my water activity graph. what ever shall do after posting this entry. i am trying to look for a part time i need money for my business and also part of my trip and studies but why my part time does not seem to call me. nevermind i shall now try looking everywhere. i don't believe it, with my capabilities i am not able to archieve anything.
came across this website that sell my favourite accessories

i'm now at liang court alone doing my stupid FYP report, my teacher wants me to get an A. But i am having some kind of headache right now, but trying my best to concentrate and not let myself down again. after being through so much, i know it is time to grow and pursue what i really want and what i want to be. Somekind and somehow the drama Doragon Zakura gave me many instincts and thinking. It tells me not to give up no matter what. even though i failed for the first time, i will be able to make it if i were to work hard towards my aim. Once failure does not mean all, if you don't work hard, yes it will be. so my dream now will be NUS for now it will be my port folio and my FYP report. i know it is difficult but i know i will make it in someday if i worked hard towards it.
On the process of studying, i would really make it to Japan, for my further studies and for my future. It does not seemed logical but i felt that i have an attached to the Japanese culture and their people. In the past, i realize how stupid and foolish i was. Putting what is infront as my ultimate dream. for now i have grown as an adult, i must have a farsight instead of just notcing what is infront but also what is in the future and make sure i learn it and do it.

By the way i am trying to train my writing skills again, after like donkey years. back to another topic this is the phone that iwant to get:

future of mine that i have decided.

i have think it through that if were not to enter MEXT i will get a job at a japanese company in singapore while studying for JLPT and get the 4 different certs on that. and then i can fufil my dream to go there every year and also to study uni there by myself so that i will not be that stress for me to take on the mext scholarship. so there fore i think i will juz take JLPT then to university then work as translator and also perhaps some one in the art industries though cuz that is part of my interest.
hmm i was thinking of the taking the diploma for advertisement though but dad said that it was not really that useful but for language i can use it anywhere. and also in the process of japanese i will take up french and also german to improve my skills.